Beauty and happiness comes from accepting yourself and not worrying about what society thinks of you.
Trigger Warnings; Self Hate.
I’ve always grown up being the biggest one out of all my friends. I hated not being able to share clothes, like all of my friends did. I hated feeling embarrassed when I would go shopping with all of my friends, and they would all be trying on things in a size two, while I would be trying on things in a size nine. I have ALWAYS felt insecure in a bathing suit. In fact, I missed out on a lot of fun times, and memories, because I didn’t go to any of the swim parties my friends had over the summer.
The other day, I took this picture, and I thought, Woah! That’s me! I don’t know what clicked in my brain, but ever since I took this picture of myself, I haven’t been as insecure about my body.
It made me realize that being a little bit bigger than your other friends isn’t a big deal at all, because you’re every bit as beautiful as them!
This woman is truly beautiful.
Okay, so the first picture is me two years ago.
I had an eating disorder. I hated myself. I couldn’t eat. I was taking meds that made me sick, and so I made that an excuse to not eat ever. I was also swimming for an hour every day. I dropped 60 pounds in 2 months. I was only 100 lbs.
I hated myself. I would look int he mirror and see a skeleton. BUt I couldn’t eat. My friends had to force me. I hated my life. I hated the way I looked.
My ex helped me get over it.
The second picture is a picture of me this summer in August.
I am fat. I’m up to 168 lbs now.
But guess what? I don’t care.
I’m beautiful. I”m so much more beautiful than I was when I was skinny. I like having meat on my bones, I like having curves. I love my thighs, I love my love handles, I love love love my size 36F breasts.
I love myself now.
Sure, I have my points when I think I’m fat. When I don’t like myself.
But ultimately, when I look in the mirror, I’m proud of myself. I’m proud that I love myself again. Sure, you may think I’m ugly. But I think I am one sexy piece of ass. So if you don’t like me, that’s your own problem. I have confidence in myself.
That is what makes me beautiful. The fact that I love myself. Not my dress size.