So, I decided, just for fun, I would take a picture of myself and photoshop it, like they do in magazines.
It was an interesting process, I showed the after picture to my sister and she said she didn’t see much of a difference, but to me, it looked drastically different, and not necessarily in a good way. I’m not sure if that’s reflecting on my photoshop skills, or on my personal body image.
I struggled with my body image for a while, I didn’t like this or that about myself, but recently, I’ve started to accept, and even love the way I look. I like my messy hair, I like the dark circles beneath my eyes, everything. Now, I can happily say that I’m just right as I am.
Always remember what you see in a photo is most likely not real. No one is societies idea of perfect. But everyone is beautiful, because beauty exist in so many different forms.
I’ve struggled with my self image for as long as I could remember. I’m trying to believe that it’s all in my head, because I’m tired of taking it out on my body. I feel much more healthy, and that makes me happy. :)
REASONS TO BE “THIN” AND WHY THEY AREN’T TRUE:
1. You can look in the mirror, and feel good about what you see.
No number on the scale will ever be low enough to make you accept what you see in the mirror. Not because there is something wrong with your body, but because you don’t have an accurate perception of the way you look. The truth is that the way you feel about your body has little to do with your actual weight, and much more to do with the way you feel about who you are as a person. When you’re able to accept yourself and embrace your flaws, who you are becomes enough and the desire to change your body in order to compensate for your faults no longer feels necessary. When you can love the person you are inside, you are able to love the person you see in the mirror.
2. So that people will like you better and want to be your friend.
Anyone who chooses their friends based on the way they look is not someone you should be interested in pursuing a friendship with. You don’t choose your friends based on how thin they are. You choose them because of who they are and how they make you feel. You’re friends with people who make you laugh and smile. People who are there to listen and validate your experience. People who share your interests and beliefs. People who make you happy. You are no exception.
3. Nothing tastes as good as thin feels.
Thinness is not synonymous with happiness. Being happy feels good. Pushing yourself beyond healthy means to achieve a perfect body, does not. Restricting makes you feel deprived, depressed, and detached. You feel weak, lightheaded, and dizzy. You have no energy and can’t concentrate. The time you take to obsessively exercise and count calories leaves you with little time to invest in your friendships, leaving you to feel isolated, lonely, and disconnected, with nothing but the scale as your friend. Ultimately,
being “thin”having thedesire to be “thin”, causes you to lose so much more than weight. You lose friends, opportunities, and life experiences. You miss out on fun, love, and connection. You miss out on life.
4. Guys/girls will be attracted to you.
No matter what size you wear or what shape your body is, there will always be someone who isn’t attracted to you. Not because you’re inadequate or ugly, but because every person is unique in the qualities and features they find attractive in others. Beauty comes in every shape and size. It doesn’t discriminate. And honestly, beauty transcends appearance. Being attractive is less about having a beautiful body, and much more about having a beautiful soul. People can be beautiful in looks, but they can also be beautiful because of who they are. Because of how they make you feel. Because of the way they make you laugh and smile. Because they have made a difference in people’s lives. The way you look is such a small part of who you are. You are so much more than a number on the scale. And if a person chooses not to be attracted to you solely because of the way you look, then they aren’t worth your time.
5. People will remember you as the “beautiful, thin one”.
Is that really what you want to be remembered for when you die? For your appearance and weight? Because when I die, I want people to remember me for the person I am. I want to be remembered for being kind and loving and compassionate. I want to be remembered for being intelligent and brave and trustworthy. I want to be remembered for my integrity, my values, and my beliefs. I want to be remembered as a good friend and sister and daughter. I want to be remembered as someone who made a difference.
I need to add a very important number 6 to this:
6. You want to be healthy.
Health does not have a body size, or a weight. There are people who are so-called ‘morbidly obese’ and yet they run marathons. There are people who are under 100lbs who can’t walk up a flight of stairs without being winded. Don’t forget this post! If health is what you are looking for, move joyfully, find a regime that works for you, but concentrate on how it makes your body FEEL, not on how it makes your body look. Pounds and inches do not equal stamina, strength, or flexibility. As always, check out Health At Every Size.
Here are the rest:
Trigger Warnings; Self Hate.
I’ve always grown up being the biggest one out of all my friends. I hated not being able to share clothes, like all of my friends did. I hated feeling embarrassed when I would go shopping with all of my friends, and they would all be trying on things in a size two, while I would be trying on things in a size nine. I have ALWAYS felt insecure in a bathing suit. In fact, I missed out on a lot of fun times, and memories, because I didn’t go to any of the swim parties my friends had over the summer.
The other day, I took this picture, and I thought, Woah! That’s me! I don’t know what clicked in my brain, but ever since I took this picture of myself, I haven’t been as insecure about my body.
It made me realize that being a little bit bigger than your other friends isn’t a big deal at all, because you’re every bit as beautiful as them!
This woman is truly beautiful.
Okay, so the first picture is me two years ago.
I had an eating disorder. I hated myself. I couldn’t eat. I was taking meds that made me sick, and so I made that an excuse to not eat ever. I was also swimming for an hour every day. I dropped 60 pounds in 2 months. I was only 100 lbs.
I hated myself. I would look int he mirror and see a skeleton. BUt I couldn’t eat. My friends had to force me. I hated my life. I hated the way I looked.
My ex helped me get over it.
The second picture is a picture of me this summer in August.
I am fat. I’m up to 168 lbs now.
But guess what? I don’t care.
I’m beautiful. I”m so much more beautiful than I was when I was skinny. I like having meat on my bones, I like having curves. I love my thighs, I love my love handles, I love love love my size 36F breasts.
I love myself now.
Sure, I have my points when I think I’m fat. When I don’t like myself.
But ultimately, when I look in the mirror, I’m proud of myself. I’m proud that I love myself again. Sure, you may think I’m ugly. But I think I am one sexy piece of ass. So if you don’t like me, that’s your own problem. I have confidence in myself.
That is what makes me beautiful. The fact that I love myself. Not my dress size.
This doesn’t mean to try for bigger, it is supposed to show you that you should be comfortable with your weight. Thinner does not mean prettier, and bigger does not mean prettier either. It is all in the way you flaunt yourself. But, a little extra meat is always sexy, and very healthy.You are beautiful; let the world know it.
Sorry I’ve been neglectful. My internet has been shotty. You’re still loved!
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